Late niqht thouqhts , depressed in her mind. Anyone know her pain ? I thouqht I did.
She said "fuck it i have nothing to lose so umma do it . bye"
I almost shed a tear.. Realized in an instant , im about to lose one of my closest friends. Ima save her life even if she dont want me to. She's not qonna pick up her phone , iknow she won't ; send her a msq iknow she'll at least see it &&' at least re-think her choice. Cryinq waitinq for a response ; I hope she ddnt do it.
" "/ it looks like thee only thing to do , don't cry over this . it doesn't hurt "
Now im stuck , she really has the balls to do it ; but maybe I have a chance , she did write back. You have a lot to live for dont throw it all away.
She was emotional , I was motionless - not a move I could make or a breath I could take w'o worryinq of the worst to come. I know she's tired of tryinq , sick of cryinq , I know she's been smilinq , but inside she's dyinq. She hid it so well. Emotional wreck ? Indeed she is , but her pride never let her show it. Everyone cut her deep , she fiqured , let me try this &&' see why everyone is doinq it. Thouqh , she took it more literal than everyone else.
All I could say was "im not prepared &&' you have more to live for. you're talented &&' you're smart ; iDc how much you wanna act like you dont care about anythinq ; you do , that's why you're hurt. &&' you need someone ; &&' im here you're not alone. "
I thouqht it wasn't enouqh to pull her back but apparently it was &&' honest to God , im happy I saved a life.
&&' To YOU ; iLoveyouuu.
